Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I'm Not Ready!!

Just yesterday he was in my belly and the u/s tech was saying "Don't go painting the room blue yet but it looks like a boy".

Just yesterday he was eating his first birthday cake and sitting on my lap.

Just yesterday he was having his second birthday and clinging on to his Barney doll.

Just yesterday he was in Preschool learning new songs and making me a Mommy's Day gift with his own precious hands.

Just yesterday he was letting me know he was okay to ride the bus all by himself.

Just yesterday he told me he was a big boy because he graduated from Kindergarten.

Just yesterday he was starting Junior High and starting to talk about girls.

And just today I cried as my oldest baby started his first day as a Freshman in High School. This morning he hugged me and walked out the door a young man. No longer a little boy holding my hand and wanting to show me his newest fingerpainting. Now he's a young man who can't wait to get his driver's license and graduate from High School. Hanging out with friends is cool. Hanging out with your mom isn't. There is no such thing as "the cool mom" right now no matter how much younger I am than the other moms. LOL.

Today a new journey started for both of us. As he embraces the changes and looks forward to the future I can't help but wish we could go back to the days when I tickled him and he giggled saying "No more tickles mommy my tummy ouchie".

Forget this growing up junk! I want my babies back!!


Mandy said...

Beautiful post. How are you doing?

Jo said...

I'm hanging on by a pinky toe. ;) Thanks for asking girl. Love your recent blog posts btw.