Wednesday, August 16, 2006

The Power Of Comments

I've received some very humbling comments in the last few days on both this blog and our MEN2a blog. Usually comments are just short witty phrases to let you know a person was there. I've always thought comments were alot of fun and can't imagine my blogs without them.

The ones I've had here lately though have honestly set me back on my heels, which is a good thing don't worry. :) People have commented that reading about me and my family has made them want to be more positive and given them hope. That's such a powerful thing to say and I never expected to have it aimed at me. As I said, it's very humbling and appreciated more than those of you who comment could know.

You see, here at home my husband says I bitch, nag, and complain too much (even if I'm just talking about my day it's considered bitching). My kids look at me often in disappointment because I can't take them somewhere they wanted to go. Some days I sit here and do nothing but cry because I feel so worthless and like such a failure. On one hand I know it's not my fault and it's because of the fibromyalgia, peripheral neuropathy, no thyroid, metastic cancer, no adrenal glands, and the meds I'm on. When I think of that I'm proud of myself because I DO try everyday to be the best I can even though I hurt like hell. On the other hand though my family makes me feel like I'm a burden because I can't be the perfect housekeeper, the perfect runaround mom, the perfect teacher, or the perfect playmate. When I look at that side I feel like I have let them down and it hurts. They don't seem to care (specifically one member) but it hurts my heart greatly. Then I see comments like the ones mentioned and I feel like at least something I'm doing matters to someone. Right now you have no clue how good that makes me feel.

As if that wasn't enough, I was checking in on my friend, Robin's, blog just reading and scrolling down when I came to this. It was so unexpected and put me in tears. I never knew she thought that way about me and it honestly made my whole month. Thank you again Robin for being such a great friend. I truly feel blessed.

So this post is just to let all of you who comment know that I appreciate ALL the comments you leave. It's like getting little happy notes in your lunchbox when you were a kid. lol. Thank you everyone who comments on this blog, our MEN2a blog, and our homeschool blog as well. I am forever humbled by your words.

Also, I finally figured out today that a big reason I don't post often anymore is because the pain is just becoming too much to keep up with everything. Sitting in this hard chair typing and trying to finish anything just makes it worse. So I'll do the best I can and hopefully soon the doctors will find something that will disconnect me from the pain a little. I'll keep updating the blogs as I can and fill you guys in as much as possible.

Thank you and blessings to all.



Norm Deplume said...

Now you've got me in tears, Jo. I meant the words I wrote, and I know lots of others feel like I do.

And getting together weekly to chat would be great. I miss you, lady!

Anonymous said...

Well, you are amazing! How you do not know that is beyond me. But I understand how self-confidence can be swept under the rug. Especially when you are so self-less. Your family is lucky to have you. We are lucky you are here in Blogville. You do give us readers strength...

Slackermommy said...

Jo thanks for stopping by and making me aware of your wonderful blog and inspiring life. You and your friend Robin have me in tears. I've only read a little of your blog and I'm already amazed by you. Such a shame that you are not getting for family support. Being a mother is hard enough without the added health problems.

Emma said...

Oh Jo, your blog is truly humbling. I'm so sorry that you are in such awful pain.
Life is for living and sometimes it takes something serious to happen to make people realise that, but it must be so hard for you as the health problems obviously hinder a lot of the things you want to do. However, from what I've read you do a fantastic job and your family are so lucky to be blessed with you.
Take care of yourself.x

Anonymous said...

Jo, you are amazing.

Angela said...

Just stumbled across your blog through other homeschool bloggers buddies, and feel as if I have found a kindred spirit.

It is so wonderful when our friends are able to see us as the wonderful people we really are, when our families sometimes take it for granted!

Anonymous said...

I just popped in to say hello and to leave a hug and to ask why I can't seem to see your other blog!




Jo said...

Thank you all so much for the comments. You are all wonderful and I enjoy "knowing" you so much. :)

Madame M- I mess some html up on it and had to delete the whole thing. Sorry there wasn't warning. lol. I'm not sure if I'm going to put it back up or not since I seem to have run out of piss and vinegar lately. If you'd like to link here I will more than happily add you to the blogroll. ;)

Cristina said...

Thank you for visiting my site and introducing me to yours.

After reading a couple of your posts, I am completely speechless. Your courage in the face of all of this is amazing. Your family is so lucky to have you, even if they don't always appreciate it right now. You are an inspiration.

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Jo, I got a lump in my throat and a sad feeling in my stomach when I read this. You sound like such a strong person and I wish you weren't hurting. I wish there was something I could do or say, and I know it doesn't mean much hearing it from a stranger...
I am sorry you're going through these trying times. May God bless you and your family and help them to understand.

Julie Julie Bo Boolie said...

You know I think even the best mother/wife/person in the world still feels lacking. What a sad legacy to ourselves that we never feel that we are enough.

You ARE amazing. I am awed at how much you can do and how well you do it! Give yourself some credit.. you certainly deserve it!