Thank You

Tonight I just wanted to say a few "thank yous" to people. I'm not sure how long this post will be as I haven't felt well the past week or so (before the scan results even) and I plan on turning in early tonight in hopes of not feeling so extremely exhausted tomorrow.

Thank you to everyone who left me comments on Wednesday's post. It means alot when I post something just to get it off my own mind and others actually care enough to respond. I think that's one of my favorite things about blogging...the caring. I'll admit that yesterday I had a little bit of a pity party for myself but it's only because no matter how sure I might be that the questionable spots are nothing, at some point everyone who has cancer has thought the same thing and it's not always true. I guess a part of me is worried because I don't have the best of luck as most of you know. I'll admit I'm worried but I refuse to make myself even sicker because of it. So yesterday I went through the "what ifs" in my own head and then I let them go. They will come back only if I'm told they need to.

I also had to get through my disappointment at being told the medullary cancer was back in my neck already. On one hand I'm glad to hear that it's someplace operable but on the other hand it's hard because I had just come to terms with the scar I already have on my neck. It just began fading this year and I was just starting to feel okay about it. Now I know for sure that they will be cutting in new places and I will have to start all over again. It may sound vain but it hurts. I guess I would liken it to someone going through chemo losing their hair. You KNOW that if you have to choose your hair or your life then you will gladly give the hair but that doesn't mean it still doesn't hurt. Those are my feelings about my neck. It's hard to let go of what I use to look like and look in the mirror at what I am now and still feel thankful. I DO but it's a mental thing I think we all have to get through. I will though and I'm finished feeling sorry for myself so don't worry.

Thank you to everyone who has included me in their posts since Wednesday. I was a little surprised to see the posts and very thankful. Donna included me in her post today and even made a donation to the Susan Komen Foundation in my name. Her gesture brought me to tears and I once again thank DotMoms for introducing me to her. It's taken us awhile to get to know each other but it's been well worth the wait, she's a really great person and I enjoy reading her blog.

Andrew dedicated a song on his Flashback Fridays post to me today. While his choice of song (Cory Hart? Are you kidding me? You will pay for that one...once I'm done remembering how sweet the thought is of you) made my eye twitch...okay so I giggled just like he knew I would and for that I thank him very much for knowing what I needed today. It's funny how well people can get to know you even when they live many states away. Again, I love that about blogging.

Last but definately not least, Christy over at Christy's Coffee Break feels I am worthy of yet another award from her. This time she has given me Polliwog's "Good Buzzz Blog Award".

Isn't it cute? Thank you Christy for always thinking of me and including me when you hand out the love. I know there are many people you have contact with on a daily basis so knowing that you still remember me means alot. Maybe one of these days we'll be blondes or brunettes at the same time too right? LOL.

Well it has taken me an hour to type this up (kept losing my train of thought LOL) so I will end it here until tomorrow. I just want to leave all of you with one more "Thank you" and hope that you all know how grateful I am to have such great blogbuddies. :)

I Heart Wonder Woman

My lovely and fantastic friend Janice has bestowed another award upon me and I love love LOVE it!!

It's the Wonder Woman Award! Suhhhh-weeeet!! Bet you're all jealous now aren't ya? HAHA! I have one and YOU don't! Yes, I'm sticking my tongue out at you right now.

Thank you Janice not only for thinking of me but the kind things you said as well. I have someone very special that I want to give this award to right away. A blog award seems like such a small thing in return for all this woman and her husband have given me.

A real life Wonder Woman I know is Holly who along with her extraordinary husband, Scott, owns the blog Hope For Holly. The blog is mostly maintained by Scott and it chronicles what life is like for their family since Holly was diagnosed with Stage 3 Colorectal Cancer in January 2007. Everything is on their blog as they are sharing it all with us including Holly's chemo treatments, when she shaved her head (AMAZING video), and even when she's having a hard time. It really brings her struggle home to you and you can't help but fall in love with both of them.

Please go over and give them a visit. They are truly an amazing couple. I've said they are my Superman and Wonder Woman before so would that make their kids Teen Titans even though they're not teens yet? LOL

Dammit and YAY!!

Okay the "YAY" stuff first because the "Dammit" stuff just pisses me off. I wanted to show recognition and love to some people who have given me awards lately. Talk about good for the ego! All these awards are gonna make me feel like a supahstah and shiz. lol.

My lovely friend Janice has given me an award and her reasons why I deserve it. All I can say is that I'm very humbled AND I'm so very behind on giving out awards now. lol. Thank you Janice. You are a great friend and our phone calls always brighten my day no matter how I'm feeling. That means alot to me.

I'm sure many of you have seen the little "Blue Ribbon Blogger" award from the Blog Fairy on people's blogs right? Well I'll be honest and say anytime I've seen that award I've thought to myself "Well I want one tooooo!". It just speaks to the spoiled little brat side of me that wants what the other kids have I guess. LMAO. Well, it seems I have finally impressed the Blog Fairy because two days ago I received this message "Congratulations! You have touched people with your writing. You are a blue-ribbon blogger! "

Ain't that just the coolest? I admitted to the Blog Fairy that I squealed like a little kid when I read that. Yes, I'm sad like that. No, I'm not a weiner. Yes, I'm smiling like an idiot. So what? I'm allowed dammit! :p lol

Here is my wonderful award from the Blog Fairy...

Now, on to the "Dammit" part of my post. *sigh* Today MonkeyBoy decided to get the juice out of the fridge himself instead of waiting for Mommy or Sissy to get it for him. Of course, he ended up dumping the whole thing inside the fridge and under it as well. This meant that lucky me got to pull the fridge out so we could mop under it and avoid an ant invasion tomorrow morning. So I pulled the fridge out little by little, we cleaned up under it, and by then my oldest was home so he moved it back for me.

Wouldn't you just fucking know that when I had moved the damn thing out it caught on the tile/linoleum/whatever the shit is and now there is a hole right in the middle of my bloody kitchen floor! Great. Just great!

Hubby Guy is out of town this weekend which means I get the "joy" of telling him when he gets back and listening to his bullshit and ranting for days afterwards. *sigh* Shit just can't go right can it? Bugger bugger bugger.

Oh well, other than that we had a pretty good day. The floor isn't a huge deal, I just hate having to argue with Hubby Guy over yet another broken thing you know? MonkeyBoy and I did have fun playing a game that Brighter Minds sent me to review. I can't wait to share my thoughts on it with you because it really is a GREAT game!!

I will have my other blogs up to date this coming week and no more falling behind! Thank you to everyone for still reading throughout my whininess the last few posts. I think I'm done whining now and can go back to just being bitchy. hehe.

Do Not Disturb!

I don't know about the rest of you but I am one tired puppy already and it is only Wednesday!! Monday just flew by because  I started giveaways on my Onorach and Sona Creidhe Reviews blogs. I tell you, my stats went from about 10 visits a day per blog to around 200 per day! It's unreal and I've already got almost 200 people total entered to win one of the eight prizes I'm offering. Wow!

By the way, if you haven't entered yet then I suggest you get your hiney over and do it now! No excuses! David, make sure you let Terri know so she can join too. ;) You have until Friday morning and then I will personally come to your blog and chastise you. The Blog Cafe and EMealsForYou have even donated some prizes to give my readers. Isn't that cool?!

Some good news. I entered Gotta Spa's "Mom: Get Glamorous" contest and guess what? I WON!! Can you believe it? I actually won something! It was so wonderful to be chosen and I am definately looking forward to all the great pampering products I will be getting. Hubby has already been warned that if he touches a single one of my bath products he will die a horrible death!! Thankfully most of the stuff is scented with girlie scents so he probably won't touch them. That means they will be MINE ALL MINE MINE MINE MINE!!! Did I mention they are mine? ;) Now I just have to worry about the girlchild stealing something. Hmmmm, I may have to trade her for a camel yet.

Last night I had the joy of talking to my blogsister Janice from Twist & Skewer and talk about fun! I think we chatted for about 4 hours and have so much in common. It was great getting to talk to her and talking about anatomy (she's going to college for nursing) with someone was fun. My knowledge was learned in life because of cancer and my health but so has some of her's. She's an amazing woman and I'm very glad to be able to get to know her better.

Last but definately not least, my other blogsister Saint Amy Jane has given me a very cool award. Amy is amazing and I am honored to know she thinks so much of me. I think getting her Hellatight award is KICK ASS!! If you haven't visited her yet then please do so soon. Wonderful lady.

Well that's it for right now. Have a great day!

Wow Lookie What I Got!

I came back online this morning to find out that yesterday I won a The Rising Blogger Post of the Day award. What I love about this award is that it is rewarded for posts and they chose my "More Than A Scar" post which is one that is very near and dear to my heart.

Isn't it pretty? Thank you Judd and The Rising Blogger, I am truly honored and will display the award proudly in my sidebar.

Now, I get to nominate another blogger's post so I'm off to read all of you lovelies! :) This is going to be hard.

Umm, More Awards To Give?

*Will the person from Kentucky who keeps googling and searching this blog for Kirk Coiner please email me if you would like more information. Fifteen visits in one week is a little much. Thanks*

Okay so I've exhausted all the cutesie ass titles when giving awards. Sorry, suck it up, you're still getting an award ya weiners! *wink*

Anywho- here are the last 6 Thinking Blogger awards I have to give out. Remember, I'm just trying to give them to people that I don't think have received one yet. Otherwise I'd be giving out about 30 of these damn things! :) Again with the rules...

Here's how the Thinking Blog Awards work - These are Ilker's Rules:
1. If, and only if, you get tagged, write a post with links to 5 blogs that make you think. (I'm breaking this rule and giving out 6 because there are many who make me think)
2. Link to this post so everyone can easily find the exact origin of the meme.
3. Optional: Proudly display the ‘Thinking Blogger Award’ with a link to the post that you wrote.
You can find the thinking blogger award in my lefthand sidebar. Just right click and save to your computer. I don't have the silver one I'm afraid but if anyone would rather have that one let me know and I'll find it for you. :)

Janice at Twist & Skewer- You are an amazing blogger that I have "met" recently and I'm very glad to know you. You are so strong and I learn something everytime I read your blog. I look forward to knowing you for a very long time. Thank you for being willing to share not only your knowledge but your pain as well with your readers. I for one greatly appreciate you.

Rachel at Our Gaggle of Girls- While I'd never wish fibro on anyone else I'm glad to know you because your spirit and fight encourages me to go on during the days I just want to lie in bed and cry. I always look forward to the days when you are not in the red zone and having a nice time with your family. It gives me hope and reminds me that I have fibro but it doesn't have me. Thank you for that.

Kat at Daily Dose of Zen Sarcasm- I think you were one of the very first bloggers I ever linked to and that linked to me. I'm so glad too because your posts are always funny, thought provoking, sarcastic as hell, and honest. I'm sorry I don't comment that often but just know I read all the time and it's probably a good thing we don't live close to each other because we would probably get in all kinds of trouble! ;)

Sam at No School, Just Learning- You are so awesome but I think you already know that. You were among the first homeschooling bloggers I read at a time when I wasn't sure I could do this. Reading your blog helped calm me down and let me know that it can be done. Thank you for that. You have the perfect combination of life, humor, sarcasm, fun, and learning on your blog and it's always a great read. Heck, you even make beer sound good!!! lol.

Katie at Divinely Crafty- You are a daily reminder of how thankful I am for Amitys and I'm so glad I know you. Of course, you had to go hop across the pond on me but your personality makes it feel like you are just down the street. You're another fibro mama that I look up to and who reminds me that the pain hurts but life still goes on. You keep me from feeling sorry for myself and for that I thank you. I am so proud of all you have accomplished in England and in your life, period. I look forward to many more years of knowing you girl.

Lill at News From Hawkhill Acres- You are just too cool for words. Your blog honestly mellows me out (no clue why but you're not boring dear don't worry. lol) and it's where I read when all I want to do is smack the hubby guy in the head with a frying pan. You have saved that man's life soooooooooo many times! ;) I enjoy hearing about your life in Maine and you always link to really great blogs that I might not find otherwise. Thank you for always commenting on my blog and encouraging me.

And now I'm done with the thinking blogger awards and can move on to the friendship rose, the courageous blogger award, and the schmooze award. I think ya'll are doing this on purpose to keep me from posting a real post. It's like handing a breathmint instead of telling me my breath is funky isn't it? Hmmm?

Chickens! ;) lmao Much love to all of you.

I'd Like To Thank My Loyal Fans...

*snort* I'm starting to think I enjoy coming up with titles more than the posts themselves. lol

Anywho- I was going to post my last six thinking blogger awards today but when I opened my email I saw that I had received two more awards so I want to take this post to acknowledge and thank Christy from Christy's Coffee Break & Writer's Review and Janice from Twist & Skewer.

Christy awarded me her very new "Courageous Blogger" Award. See....

Janice awarded me the "Blogging Community Involvement" Award or affectionately known as the "Schmoozer's Award". lol

So I guess that makes me a rocking, thinking, schmoozing, courageous friend right? :) I just want everyone to know that I appreciate all these blog awards. It's nice to know that people read and think so highly of me. I enjoy getting know each and every one of you more than you know.

This means that after I post the thinking blogger awards I get to start thinking about who to give these out to as well. LMAO. I'm not complaining though, this is fun.

The Flousey Flousey...

Damn Fergie!!! Now her crappy song is stuck in my head! *le sigh*

A little while back Doc awarded me a Thinking Blogger award. Okay, so she awarded everyone on her blogroll an award but by jove it still counts! Today I will give out those six awards and then in another day or two I'll give out the rest with a special Friendship Rose going out to one very special person.

Keep an eye out for a few of my old DotMoms posts on this blog very soon. Those of you who are new readers can have a chance to read something other than my usual dirty-mouthed crapola! lol. I chose my favorite posts so I hope you will like them too.

Here's how the Thinking Blog Awards work - These are Ilker's Rules:

1. If, and only if, you get tagged, write a post with links to 5 blogs that make you think. (I'm breaking this rule and giving out 6 because there are many who make me think)
2. Link to this post so everyone can easily find the exact origin of the meme.
3. Optional: Proudly display the ‘Thinking Blogger Award’ with a link to the post that you wrote.

Meg of Get In Hang On- of course you're going to be my very first one awarded because you are one of the most amazing and smartest people I know. I'm so glad that we got to know each other while you were here. You are one of the few friends I had/have here and I'm so glad that friendship has continued. I don't think I would have made it through the first year of homeschooling Big B without your help. Thank you.

Jessica of Did I Read The Fine Print?- Not only are you my Mormon Puddin' Pop but you have also been a great friend over the years. You have taught me so much about so many things- Mormonism, what life with a big family is like (she's pregnant with number SEVEN folks!), and how to keep fighting for the things that mean something to me. I'm very glad to have you as a friend Kool-Aid, hot dogs, and all.

Robin of I'm Not A Writer- I am so jealous of how quickly you picked up knitting, girl. The things you make are awesome and I enjoy seeing each and every one. Thank you for always being there for me. You are another person who has been here through all the cancer, MEN2a, pain, and other BS that has become my life. You always offer an ear and a shoulder and I always know I can count on you. I truly treasure your friendship and hope it lasts for many many years.

Joy of Dante's Virgil- I think I found you through a comment on Doc's blog a few years ago and ever since I have enjoyed knowing you and reading your blog. You are so witty, intelligent, and fun. Those are all reasons why I know I could meet you tomorrow and feel like I've known you forever. Your love for your son is so strong and so inspiring. Thank you for being my friend and letting me into your world.

Cassandra at The Atheist Mama (two years and I still don't know her name!)- Your site is fantastic and where I always go when I've had to deal with a fundie or fanatic. Why? Because your site is filled with intelligent, thoughtful, and informational posts and it helps me to drop the anger and instead just read and learn. You were the first atheist blogger I came across and ever since then I've been hooked. Thank you for all you are and all you do.

Vicki & Joey of Where The FuhKaui?- This family is amazing and I am so jealous of their lives! This family has converted an old schoolbus into an RV and they travel the country with their children. The kids are homeschooled in title but actually they are life and everywhere schooled! Lucky kids. If you've never visited this site before then please read some of Vicki's posts. They have seen some really amazing things in their travels and they are alot of fun. Thank you FuhKaui family for sharing your world and teaching me something new everytime I visit your blog.

That's it for tonight. On Thursday I should be able to have the remaining 6 names up and then the last awards as well.

In other news- the total number of visitors for June was 2,083. So I didn't get any new action but I at least didn't go down either so I am very very happy about that!

The Glamorous...

I want to ask that you take a few moments to send your thoughts (and prayers if you pray) to NYCWatchDog. He lost his little boy last week in an accident at the swimming pool. I can only imagine the pain he has been in and I admire his strength. I don't know if I could be as strong and hope to never find out. Another blogger collected donations for the Puppy Monster Memorial Fund (his son's nickname) and as of this weekend they raised over $3000!!! Isn't that amazing?!

Okay, I wanted to make sure that I gave out at least a few awards tonight. I know, I've been hoarding them for awhile now but I am ready to pass them on. Ready? Let's work that carpet baby!

Rockin' Blogger Awards-

Last week MadGoatLady gave me the very fun Rockin' Girl Blogger award. So this week I get to pass it on to four of you. Why just four? Well because they've made one for the guys now too and so my fifth award will go to our resident manly man. LOL.

Also, I'm trying to pick people who haven't been picked. If you read this blog regularly then you are honestly someone I'd like to give an award to but I figured I'd pass it to those who are awardless thus far. *wink*

Angie Lee- You get this award because I think you are absolutely awesome, and you sealed my gurliefriends-online-love with the Friendship Rose award you gave me. You are truly a rockin' girl blogger and I'm so very glad to know you.

Kristie at Slacker-Moms-R-Us- You get this award because you really do rock and your wit, strength, and outlook on life always make my day better. I'm so glad to know you and thank you for being you. Don't let 'em get to you girl! ;)

Eliza- You are my contest hookup and I love reading ALL the blogs you write for. Besides, you look just like one of my best friends so that of course endears me to you even more. *wink* I'm sorry my blog is causing your computer problems right now but know that I appreciate each and every visit you make.

Jen- It's odd to think I've known you for over three years now but I'm thankful for every one of them. You are so funny and full of life. I hope to be you when I grow up, smokin' body and all! lol. Maybe you could slow down once in awhile though because while you're more "mature" than me, you're really making me look bad with all the spinning, meetups, and life in general. Damn woman, you make ME tired just reading ya! ;)

And last but definately not least, I want to give my favorite male blogger an award as well...

David- As you said in a comment, we are complete opposites but I truly believe that you, your wife, and I are alike in the ways that matter. You are good people who care not only about your family but others as well. You are open-minded and don't judge me because I'm not like you. You two are the kind of people I love to surround myself with and I am very honored and thankful to be getting to know you both. You are also so funny and such a smartass! I may have to make you and Terri my Mormon Popsicle and Mormon Nutty Buddy though. What can I say? You Mormons just make me wanna give you ice cream names. *snort*

Sweet dreams everyone and may you and your family stay safe.

And The Awards Go To...

ME!!!

How was everyone's weekend? Mine was honestly too long and shitty. I spent the weekend with insomnia and sick which seems to be becoming the norm for me again. I have a feeling that bloodwork and testing are coming in my very near future. *eyeroll* I also woke up at 8:30am on Saturday morning and didn't sleep again until 11:30pm last night!! Twenty-seven hours without sleep will make you pretty loopy and I also found out that it will bring on one bitch of a fibro flare up!!

Anyway- I have received a few "awards" lately and I thought I would share them with you as well as introduce you to the ladies who gave them to me. I always enjoy knowing that I'm making other people laugh and smile so to me every award is special.

About a week ago, Christy over at Christy's Coffee Break awarded me with the "Thinking Blogger" award. She said that I have a great blog and a great spirit. Thank you for such nice words, Christy, and I am proud to display the award. I will try to give one to others very soon.

On Saturday, Angie over at What Floats My Boat awarded me her very first ever Rose of Friendship (Hey Ang, make an official name for this. lol). She wrote a very sweet post to go along with why she gave it to me so make sure you read it. I feel very lucky to be getting to know so many wonderful people and especially people like Angie who I seem to have alot in common with. I'm also going to put alot of thought into who this award is given to next.

Late last night Mad Goat Lady awarded me with a "Rockin' Girl Blogger" award. She said some very nice things about me as well and I just want to tell all three ladies thank you for thinking I'm worth giving awards to.

I can't wait to pass all of these awards on to others and boy is it going to be hard to choose! By the way, if you haven't joined MyBlogLog yet I highly recommend that you do now. I have gotten to know some really great new people that I don't think I would have "met" otherwise due to how huge the blogosphere is. Thanks to MyBlogLog though it has become alot easier! I have gotten so many comments, visits, and emails from other bloggers since joining there. Trying to keep up with everybody is alot of fun. Besides, if either one of us have joined the other's community on there then it's very hard for me to lose their link! haha

Well I'm off to try to sleep tonight. Sunday night I actually slept for about 8 hours and I'd really like to try to repeat that again right now! Wish me luck and have a great week friends!