Yes, I Cluck Too!

Because I'm a great big chickenshit! My face was hurting again this morning and the idea of going out in the cold to THAT appointment didn't sound like a good idea so I turned off the alarm clock and went back to sleep thus missing my colonoscopy today. *sigh* I feel like a total jerk now. I wasn't having it done for any cancer scares or anything just to see what was going on with my stomach (before the B12 shots) but still. So I basically chickened out no matter what my excuse might be. I'm sorry. :(

I have spent two days out of the last seven in bed past 11am and I just can't figure out what's wrong with me. There are no symptoms that I can use to pinpoint anything specific and doctors honestly don't care about my lack of appetite and nausea since I'm not losing tons of weight (because of the steroids I have to take). Only once I look like a stick will they worry. Until then I just feel exhausted all the time, nauseous all the time, no appetite, of course thanks to the fibro I have that flu ache but it's non-stop too, and I've been getting some horrid migraines quite often. My face hurts because I think I have a wisdom tooth coming in behind a tooth that needs pulled. As these two battle it out I get left with the pain from it. Bitches!

So far the giveaway is off to a great start and it will stay at the top of the page for the duration of the contest for everyone to see. That means you have to remember to scroll down for new posts. Anyway- thanks to the curious girls at AmityMama, this blog is over 200 hits for the day and still climbing. I love you ladies! Do you think you could come back EVERY day like that? ;)

Even though I feel like ass today I decided to take the kids to the store for a few items we need just to get out of the house. With us living out in BFE they are usually stuck here with me and when Mama has been sick for a month... people start getting a little pissy ya know?

So I stopped at the Thrift Store first because I've been wanting to get Big B some funky ties for Christmas. I already have some t-shirts with sayings on them that I got from the department store in Albuquerque but decent ties at a decent price are hard to come by. I found four ties for him at the Thrift Store so I left happy and then we went to Hell-Mart because three of us need some long sleeve shirts for winter. I would have rather gone ANYWHERE else but it's the only store in this podunk town so there ya go.

We picked up what we needed plus some fruit, grabbed the little guy his BookIt! pizza from Pizza Hut, and came home again. Aren't we a wild bunch?! Wooo-weeee! *snort* Sadly, I am exhausted just from that little outing and ready for bed. So that's where I'm off to with the MonkeyBoy but I'm not going to sleep in tomorrow! My house looks like hell and needs cleaned so no matter what I have to get off my duff and work on it!

Or maybe I'll just bribe the kids with money and food to do it for me. Hey, I said MAYBE sheesh!

Have a wonderful night everyone!

Miss Me?

Well I'm afraid you're going to have to miss me for a few days more (except for a review I have to post on here tomorrow for PBN). LOL. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a week but I've been slowly getting sick over the past month and it got really bad from Thanksgiving on. Just as I started feeling better yesterday one of my damn teeth started hurting so now I'm wanting to have someone punch me in the mouth just so it will feel better. Seriously, vicodin isn't even touching it!!

Anyway- I know I missed MCM and I thought about coming on and posting it but it's hard to sit here for long. I've spent the last week getting sick everytime I eat, I had a migraine from hell for four days, I'm exhausted all the time, and the fibromyalgia seems like it is a constant thing right now. Oh and I have handfuls of hair coming out everytime I brush or wash my hair. Luckily I have abnormally thick hair but even it can't last too long! LOL.

As for my scans, hopefully I will know something tomorrow. I finally called and asked what the hell was going on and why haven't they been scheduled if this was all supposedly such a big deal. The M.A. that I talked to said that she will find out who dropped the ball and let them know that these scans are needed ASAP. So that should be taken care of and hopefully things will get rolling now.

So don't give up on me and don't go taking me off your feed readers or I'll still kick your ass! I expect to feel better very soon and I DO have a giveaway I promised to hold.

Oh and on the funny side- I found out that Big B's donor and his wife have been talking about me lately. It seems that Wifey 3 is worried that I'm going to die and they will "get stuck" with Big B. *laughing hard and trying not to pee my pants*. I laughed so hard I almost cried!! What in the hell makes that woman think I would EVER allow Kirk Coiner and her have my son? Is the bitch high? She can quit worrying because I'd tell Big B to live in a cardboard box before I'd let two irresponsible lying assholes have him. Bitch please!

By the way- Kirk STILL isn't paying his child support and now owes my son over $19,750.00, sick isn't it? But he can afford to go fishing and deer hunting of course. Fucking scumsucker.

Thank You

Tonight I just wanted to say a few "thank yous" to people. I'm not sure how long this post will be as I haven't felt well the past week or so (before the scan results even) and I plan on turning in early tonight in hopes of not feeling so extremely exhausted tomorrow.

Thank you to everyone who left me comments on Wednesday's post. It means alot when I post something just to get it off my own mind and others actually care enough to respond. I think that's one of my favorite things about blogging...the caring. I'll admit that yesterday I had a little bit of a pity party for myself but it's only because no matter how sure I might be that the questionable spots are nothing, at some point everyone who has cancer has thought the same thing and it's not always true. I guess a part of me is worried because I don't have the best of luck as most of you know. I'll admit I'm worried but I refuse to make myself even sicker because of it. So yesterday I went through the "what ifs" in my own head and then I let them go. They will come back only if I'm told they need to.

I also had to get through my disappointment at being told the medullary cancer was back in my neck already. On one hand I'm glad to hear that it's someplace operable but on the other hand it's hard because I had just come to terms with the scar I already have on my neck. It just began fading this year and I was just starting to feel okay about it. Now I know for sure that they will be cutting in new places and I will have to start all over again. It may sound vain but it hurts. I guess I would liken it to someone going through chemo losing their hair. You KNOW that if you have to choose your hair or your life then you will gladly give the hair but that doesn't mean it still doesn't hurt. Those are my feelings about my neck. It's hard to let go of what I use to look like and look in the mirror at what I am now and still feel thankful. I DO but it's a mental thing I think we all have to get through. I will though and I'm finished feeling sorry for myself so don't worry.

Thank you to everyone who has included me in their posts since Wednesday. I was a little surprised to see the posts and very thankful. Donna included me in her post today and even made a donation to the Susan Komen Foundation in my name. Her gesture brought me to tears and I once again thank DotMoms for introducing me to her. It's taken us awhile to get to know each other but it's been well worth the wait, she's a really great person and I enjoy reading her blog.

Andrew dedicated a song on his Flashback Fridays post to me today. While his choice of song (Cory Hart? Are you kidding me? You will pay for that one...once I'm done remembering how sweet the thought is of you) made my eye twitch...okay so I giggled just like he knew I would and for that I thank him very much for knowing what I needed today. It's funny how well people can get to know you even when they live many states away. Again, I love that about blogging.

Last but definately not least, Christy over at Christy's Coffee Break feels I am worthy of yet another award from her. This time she has given me Polliwog's "Good Buzzz Blog Award".

Isn't it cute? Thank you Christy for always thinking of me and including me when you hand out the love. I know there are many people you have contact with on a daily basis so knowing that you still remember me means alot. Maybe one of these days we'll be blondes or brunettes at the same time too right? LOL.

Well it has taken me an hour to type this up (kept losing my train of thought LOL) so I will end it here until tomorrow. I just want to leave all of you with one more "Thank you" and hope that you all know how grateful I am to have such great blogbuddies. :)

No Hump No Hump Just Ugly Little Lumps

They are soooooooo not lovely either!! Well I got my Octreotide Scans results back today and it wasn't what I was expecting.

The cancer is definately back on the left side of my neck and coming back in the right side also known as there was definate uptake on the left and mild on the right. I expected that though and knew someday it would come back. I really didn't expect it this soon though so that kinda sucks. *sigh*

The part I didn't expect is that there is a questionable spot on the scan behind my right breast and also two more in my heart. Yeah, a little scary. I figured I would go in and hear that NOTHING lit up and just go on with what to do with this lymph node that is pushing on my artery. So much for thinking right? It's not time to worry yet because the spots in my chest and heart very well might be nothing. That's what getting more scans is going to find out.

So I have to have three scans done- a CT Scan of my neck and chest, an Ultrasound of my chest, and an Ultrasound guided biopsy of that lymph node in my neck. The first two will tell us if there is any reason to worry about the heart or chest and the last one is just so a surgeon will agree to operate on me. My endocrinologist said the scans should be scheduled pretty quickly so I will keep you updated.

So much for thinking I got to relax and kick back this month. Hey, if I can't laugh at it then it wins and I'm a sore loser. ;)

Oh yeah, I forgot to say where two of my tattoos are going on yesterday's post. Tattoo #2 is going to be either in between my left shoulder and my spine or on the back of my lower neck. Tattoo #3 is going to be either right above the phoenix or on my left shoulder. It just depends on how big I decide I want it.

Even Bullies "Get" Blogging!

What next? "And my mom gets more hits than yours"? LOL

No I didn't punk out on a post tonight. I posted this because it reminded me of a conversation MonkeyBoy and the Hubs had last night. Stars I love this boy!! Want me to share it with you?

Daddy- "What do you think of this desktop picture, buddy?"

MB- "Why don't you put it on your blog too?"

Daddy- "I don't have a blog, dude"

MB- "Oh, well then how about on your websites or MySpace?"

Daddy- "Daddy doesn't have those things only Mommy does"

MB- "Wow, your life really sucks doesn't it?"

*wiping a tear out of pride*

*wiping several tears from laughing so damn hard!*

If there were ever any doubts he was my son I think that one would have cinched it. So tell me, am I the only mother who takes pride in what smartasses her children are? Even snickering where they can't see you when they say something funny counts so don't go hiding on me!

The new week has started on my Exercise for Comments and last week we got to 60 minutes. I almost made it the full way but ended up with gallbladder spasms and a slightfever today (which means I have to go back on one of my meds) so I mostly just sat around and took a nap. I expect more than 60 minutes this week though and I will try harder too okay?

So share with me something funny or smartass that your kids have said. Their little "kidisms" as they are called. I'd love to hear them!

Coming tomorrow- Mad Click Monday, news about upcoming contests, recap of new reviews, and I'll discuss the new tattoos I will be getting for Christmas! Hell, I might even still pierce my nose! ;)

I Heart Wonder Woman

My lovely and fantastic friend Janice has bestowed another award upon me and I love love LOVE it!!

It's the Wonder Woman Award! Suhhhh-weeeet!! Bet you're all jealous now aren't ya? HAHA! I have one and YOU don't! Yes, I'm sticking my tongue out at you right now.

Thank you Janice not only for thinking of me but the kind things you said as well. I have someone very special that I want to give this award to right away. A blog award seems like such a small thing in return for all this woman and her husband have given me.

A real life Wonder Woman I know is Holly who along with her extraordinary husband, Scott, owns the blog Hope For Holly. The blog is mostly maintained by Scott and it chronicles what life is like for their family since Holly was diagnosed with Stage 3 Colorectal Cancer in January 2007. Everything is on their blog as they are sharing it all with us including Holly's chemo treatments, when she shaved her head (AMAZING video), and even when she's having a hard time. It really brings her struggle home to you and you can't help but fall in love with both of them.

Please go over and give them a visit. They are truly an amazing couple. I've said they are my Superman and Wonder Woman before so would that make their kids Teen Titans even though they're not teens yet? LOL

Eight And Eight Equals ALOT!!

I saw this MeMe...somewhere that I can't even remember but I thought it was cool so I'm doing it. LOL. Plus it gives me a post for tonight and then tomorrow I can post a blaugh cartoon and you'll feel all happy inside. hehehe

This is an Eight Things About Eight Things MeMe and it was honestly a little hard on some of them but I did it! Go Me! So enjoy whether you want to or not. :p

Eight Things I am Passionate About (In no particular order by the way!)
-My three awesome kids
-MEN2a awareness
-Medullary thyroid cancer awareness
-Living (it's worth being passionate about!)
-Setting an example for my kids and showing them that cancer doesn't have to rule your life
-Child abuse awareness
-Kickass tattoos
- My kids knowing I love them no matter what.


Eight Things I Want To Do Before I Die
- Travel Europe, Asia, and Africa with a nice stop in Canada too.
- See all three of my children reach adulthood
- Have something I've written published in print
- Be organized just once in my life to see what it feels like.
- Either place the order for my ashes to become LifeGems or buy and inscribe the boxes for my ashes to give each of the kids. This might sound weird to others but it's important to me.
- Feel true and deep love from a man just once in my life. I've never had that and I'd like to know what its like.
- Have a family vacation somewhere nice since we've never had one.
- Make sure Vin knows how thankful I am for all he has done for me and my children.


Eight Things I Say Often
-Dammit!!
-Quit whining!!!
-Ya think?
-I love you
-Knock it off!!
-Fuck, my head hurts
-Damn I hurt
-Ewwww who faughted?

Yes, I curse too much. I'm not proud of it but I do it so get over it and yes, I really ask who faughted at least 10 times a day because the people in this house are gassy and I'm not which just isn't fair dammit!

Eight Books I’ve Recently Read
-The Reincarnationist (didn't like)
-Priestess of Avalon
-Interred With Their Bones (loved it)
-Dr. Seuss' Sleep Book
-I, Elizabeth
-Beauty Confidential

-The Dangerous Book for Girls

-Lady With Ten Thousand Names

Eight Songs That I Could Listen To Over And Over
-I Would Do Anything For Love by Meatloaf
-Stand by Rascal Flatts
-Live Like You Were Dying by Tim McGraw
-Walk On Water by Eddie Money
-Switch by Will Smith
-Hips Don't Lie by Shakira
-Don't Blink by Kenny Chesney
-Anything with a bellydance or Hindi beat


Eight Things That Attract Me To My Best Friends
-Must have a wicked sense of humor
-The ability to at least feign intelligence
-Brilliant debating/arguing skills. (Okay so I would settle for great. Great is good.)
-Ability to count on them when I really need them (Thank you Carrie)
-Allowing me to be myself
-Totally and brutally honest even if it hurts
-Openmindedness in as many things as comfortably possible
- The talent to be a royal smartass

Eight Things I Have Learned This Past Year
-Life is precious so quit screwing up and letting it slip away
-Snuggling with my kids fixes just about everything
-Sometimes I AM smarter than doctors so stand up for myself more
-No matter how hard you think you've got it, someone else's life is always much harder. Be thankful.
-My oldest son is going to be a great man one day soon and he's a great friend now.
-I'm hard on my daughter because I'm afraid she'll grow up to be like I use to be- a doormat who lets people abuse her. I'm scared for her but I'm too hard on her. I also learned she is becoming even more beautiful than I thought possible.
-My youngest is a handful and I've been too lax with him yet he's my last baby and I never know if I'll see him grow up so I'll deal with it.
- That I have Adult ADD which means all those years I thought I was stupid and lazy, I wasn't and that means alot.


Eight People That Should Do This MeMe and Not Complain
Andrew, Summer, Janice, Nicole, Andrea, Karen, Jenny, and Robin

Oh and I have a few more MeMes to catch up on this month so expect payback bitches! ;P

My Name Is Jo. I'm A NaBloPoMo-Ho

As I mentioned in my post yesterday, I joined NaBloPoMo which is the National Blog Posting Month challenge. The "Ho" part was added by Kelly and I just plain ole stole it. hehe.

So for my second day's post I just wanted to say, YOU GUYS SUCK!! That's right, you are all a bunch of girlie men. Thirty-one comments this week? Are you kidding me?! I've been holding off on doing exercise just so you could give me a real challenge!! Wussies. Wimps. CHICKENS!!! :p

I thought you wanted to help me move muh ass? Five minutes worth of exercise as a daily average is not helping me any you know. I could do that walking up my stairs to the second floor. Sheeesh. I expect better next week. Meg, you've been doing great hun keep up the great work. The rest of you...PICK UP THE PACE!!! Don't make me bring out my Pimp Hand and bitchslap all you.

Question for ya- where does the name "A Pimp Named SlickBack" come from? Anybody know? No real reason for that just a funny thing I was thinking about. *snort*

Anywho- To help all ya'll out, here are some links to old posts of mine that I happen to like. You know you can comment on old posts too right? So here you go ya buncha slackers...

-Lil Man, You're Obsessing...-

-Everybody Poops..Nooooo Really?-

-Support Holocaust Remembrance Week-

-Why Life With Heathens?-

-If I Get The Choice...-

-Rotten Little Children!-

-4 Things I Would Like To Know…-

-NEVER Click On "Next Blog"!!-

-Things heard in my house today...-

-Our Nature Sounds Clock= Nervous Breakdown-

-Dammit Gordon!-

and just because it's fun to piss off the deadbeat donor....

- Kirk A. Coiner- "Just The Facts, Ma'am"-

Tomorrow you get a blaugh cartoon or some shit cuz I'm not putting out... anything that takes alot of thought...on a Saturday.

I know at least ONE of you who had a dirty mind there!! LOL